I'm learning the hard way that I'm not perfect. and no, I didnt really ever think I was perfect, I knew I had my flaws. It's just hard when every little thing is thrown in your face. Hell I posted a random post on facebook the other day, and it was thought to be related to something that it totally wasnt. I am trying to be a good person to everyone. Apparently that is not the case. Or at least certain people dont think so. I was essentially kicked out of the farm where I had horses for 5 years today. Over something that shouldnt have been. I'll admit I got upset and reacted sooner than I should have. However, I feel as though I am not completely in the wrong. I guess there will always be the difference in opinion on that one though.
The next thing I have to think about is how bad do I really want horses in my life? I have little to no confidence under saddle, and need some encouragement. After today I found I will no longer find that encouragement from people I considered family. I feel lost, alone, and sick to my stomach. Not to mention like the most awful person who ever walked the planet. I tried to fix things a while ago. Apparently I didnt. I thought our relationship was on the mend...apparently not. There isn't much of a point to this post, other than me just venting. I sure do wish there was a way to express how I feel and people I know actually read it. For now. I'm anonymous. I'm me
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